Lazy Days

I really...really...enjoyed my lazy days hahahhaahaha

*unimportant post just to filled in my blog :p

Enjoying every step in life

Just arrived at my home town in Jakarta, after a year in Holland...what shall I say except I feel very sad to leave my life there, my friends whom I think as my family and the shopping places there hehe...

When I sat down on my plane, I just thought each hour that place was became far and far away, that I could not go back although I really want to... and tears fell down while I closed my eyes and imagined things that I left there, an opportunity...

Sometimes I mad at myself because I let the opportunity, the experience to find job and stay there a little bit longer fly away..but then,, I think an important reason why I left the country...Family..that's what matter most...

So, I try to enjoy the step I took, the opportunity that come with each step, and family and friends that always be there even though we're far away now... and friends who waiting me here :)

Yes, I'm glad I have those experiences which not many have the opportunity to study abroad,,, aaaah... I hope I know become a better person... and still find a way to become a better person than yesterday...

The Skyrocket Internet

Inspired by rnw.nl to write about our experience in Holland, thus it reminds me why I created this blog :)

So , now I will write about one thing that I could not live without it while I'm in Rotterdam....which areeeeee........

INTERNET and my LAPTOP

Of course,,how could I live without them that always accompanying me EVERYDAY and EVERY HOUR, and even EVERY SINGLE MINUTE (wait...I'm not exaggerating...seriously haha)

It's true, here in Holland the internet speed is really amazing...well not that I've tried internet access in every country but...as far as I know Holland has the fastest internet connection....woohooo.... so I could streaming movies in just a sec, I don't have to wait at all and downloading everything I want (everything? hmmm...)

This is how I say internet and laptop are the biggest part of my life:

10.00am (well...not that early,,,but you don't have to know exactly what time I wake up every morning hehe...) I woke up

10.02am Turn on my laptop, sit down and start open Facebook

10.30am Still in front of my laptop, browsing things

11.00am okay maybe we should skip to...

14.00pm it's lunch time, cooking etc

15.30pm go back to where I belong...laptop and internet

etc....

02.00am time to sleep, turn off my laptop and say goodnight to everyone in facebook (okay...it starting to freaking me out...am I a freak??)

Why? okay,,let see... I have broad access to journal for my thesis so I just need to search it in google schoolar and then read it...if I found something I don't understand or interesting I will then google it again, I don't have to wait more than 3 second to found my search items.

Yahoo Messenger... It's an easy access for me to talk with my friends and family although they're far away..and also free hahaha

Watching dramas, tv serial or movies from internet??? say yeeees...!!

Facebook...yep...I think I could not live without it..sometimes it gives me more information than news channels :p ( I mean like how is he doing now?? woow....you have new Iphone?? what you have new boyfriend??...yeah something like that hahaha)

etc. etc. etc.

what? I don't have social life here you think? no..not really...because most of the time I spent my day at home for my thesis....however, I do have many friends here...If not because of them,,,,maybe I would became Crazy girl (you're not??)

So the point is...I will definitely miss the internet connection here in Holland if I got back home :D...and my laptop of course since I would not use it anymore hehe....

Kiss Kiss

Long week

This week is an re-sit exam week and thesis week as well... need to study while doing my thesis. However it just a very big plan for me and I did not do it like that... Mostly after I have my exam I should be writing on my thesis but instead of that, I just watching korean drama.... these daya I don't have enough spirit to do anything especially studying =_='

I could not sleep well, my thesis is waiting for me and the day after tomorrow I will have my second re-sit. So what's the point of writing a blog then? just to delay my thesis time hahaha which I always did nowadays.

Okay,, since I need to pull my energy...I'm planning to go to Kinderdijk this saturday...biking... underlined the word Biking hehehe... I hope everything going well and I could enjoy my weekend like everybody else in this world :)

I wanna go here !

Taken from kinderdijk.org

Tulip

Sweet Dream

Xtreme!!

We went to some kind of small amusement park near my friend's house. It was fun!! I just ride one attraction, the one in the picture? noo..not that one haha...I won't dare to ride that one :D

Canon G11

Kiss kiss....!

What's new?

hmmm...its been a while since my last post... although I have promise to write at least once a week hehe... I dunno, I feel so lazy lately to do EVERYTHING...yes, everything... studying, reading, hanging around, things I used to do... where is my spirit gone??
I just feel bored with my activities here I think... sometimes I felt trapped here... don't know where to go...
Hmm...I think I have to buy that discount train card so I could go anywhere when I feel stuck here hehe...

Okay, what is new here?

1. I got new Camera Canon G11! woohoo...!! Love it so much...actually its a gift from my Dad (after I gave so many reasons why I want it and promise that I will save my money to buy it). I'll surely post my pic with G11 here...just wait... I'm thinking to join my friends project (well...not that serious hehe..) to make a photo everyday until 365 pics which mean a year....interesting...

2. I'm starting to write my Thesis, still haven't decide the questions yet but I'll write about ASEAN thing since its related to my home. I hope everything would be run smoothly...since I got a supervisor who really nice

3. I passed all the exam in 2nd Block...really2 thanks to God and all prayer from my fam and friends...thank you very much. I check my last result of my exam just recently, because I really doubt my grade would pass the min. grade... but I passed!! with a good grade that I never expected!! hehehe....thx God!

4. Doing paper for International Economic Law, just 500 words actually... I feel guilty after I let my friends work it by herself hahaha....sorry for my laziness

5. My love life? just fine, only that I have decide something 'important' ;)

6. Its almost spring now, the weather is nice, not too cold anymore...

7. Being here always realize me how important my family and my friends back in my home... Its also has taught me many things and its still goes on... I'm still learning to become mature... its easy to say old than mature...(I quote it from somewhere but I forgot which blog hehe...but its nice though).


Okay...I think that's all....need to go back to my paper....
Adios, Have a nice everybody...!

I've Survived!!

this is the picture when snow falling heavily....huuuff..... I have class that day sigh....

After the snow, my Tram stuck somewhere so I should walk to school....

I though well....since this might be the opportunity to see some snow, why don't took pics

So, the neighborhood cover with snow, and now should I say Goodbye snow and welcome to the new season Spring?? hehehe

Music save my life??

Suddenly I remember about my MP3 Player, this Ipod is my 3rd Mp3 player after I lost the other 2 huhuuh....


The first one is the Ipod classic in Pink, I love it very much. I always carried it with me wherever I go. It was such a good friend accompanied me when I was on the way to campus... Give me sometimes just to faced some boring day hehe...

but, once I almost lost because every time I went to campus by bus I always put on my Ipod, so I could sleep or just starring out of the window and day dreaming with music as a background.... and at that time, my bus decide to use the highway because the other road was stuck with traffic jam. I didn't hear the driver announcement to warned him if we want to stop in some place which he passed it. So when I realized it wont go through the road that I have to stop, I'm was panicking, so I ask the driver why we use the highway (since I didnt hear it) and the driver blame it to the person who collected the money (I dont know in english but we called it 'Kondektur') because he didnt informed me before (well,,actually it was my mistake hehehe so sorry)

So, I end up stop in the middle of highway where all the car run very fast hiiks.... and my campus was locate it in front of the highway. then I should walk slowly and since there is a bridge, I need to use the ladder to get down huhuhuhu....

And I lost it when I was going to Puncak with my friend, I remember put it in my bag and then...it just disappears like magic huhuuhuhuh

but, its really a nice and exciting experience hehehe with my ipod....so friends...do not plug your ear if you're going to take bus in Indonesia, because sometime there are some changes on the way to your work or home hehehe...unpredictable...yes yes...

The other want is Sony mp3 player, I forget which type. My dad bought it for me to replace my long lost Ipod (hiks...) but then I lost it too...!! well...this time its my mistake because I didn't put in safe place and somebody just took it hiiks...( I wonder how he's gonna play it without any software,,,geeez....)

And now, my Purple (I don't know why I choose that color hahaha) Ipod. I hope it will always stay by my side hehehehe muuuaaaah...!!

The Assignment

For me, writing is not an easy task...besides that I'm very lazy to write or type, sometimes I'm stuck in the middle of writing...like I don't know what else I should say...

This time I'm stuck with my International Criminal Law assignment. I have to write 2500-3000 words about a topic. I choose 'The Relationship between International Tribunal and Domestic Courts'. I think its an interesting topic to know what might be their relationship, however after I read some journals and books which then I picked 'the Completion Strategy', I still don't find any idea what to write AND...the deadline is tomorrow at 12pm... gosh....

Until now, I'm still writing the introduction without any progress...then read some blogs...continue my writing...stuck...open shopping online website...get back to my work...stuck...went to the kitchen and took some cakes, made a coffee just to make sure I'll be awake until morning come....

I know, it might be bring to write my assignment here....but maybe I could get an idea for writing...
hmmm.....okay, its about International Criminal Tribunal for Yugoslavia (ICTY) that established by the Security Council to prosecuted person who commit killing for some ethnic in Croatia, Bosnia and Herzegovina. Trust me, its one of cruel things happened in those Countries,, its like Nazi.

However, the Tribunal only existed for temporary until all the indictments (the bad guys) being jailed for what they've done. Then, the Tribunal need a strategy to complete all the cases in a certain period. Thus they made some steps to carry out the strategy.

What make me confused is that I have to focus with the topic I've choose....then where the hell is the relation between the Tribunal and Domestic Courts??

Yess....it is in the steps which the Tribunal should carry out. One of the steps is to refer the low and middle rank accused to national courts that is to former countries of Yugoslavia. However, it is not that easy to refer the cases to national courts since the accused may have some influence for the Countries (they are the military people).

And then...what? now that what I should work on it...

Okay...wish me luck and I hope I'll upload my assignment on time huhuhuhu....

Shop...shopping...

Welcome home Baby :)

I bought this shoes after hours thinking about it, well..I think it's really a good bargain from 40 euro to 16 euro??? of course,, How women could insist that SALE things??

So...I decide to buy this shoes and promise with myself that I won't shop again until next month (crossing finger hehe...)

Now, let's Study!!!!

Snow oh Snow

It's in the middle of February and now I'm screaming for Summer!!
Apparently, snow is still here with temperature under O degree... I always love snow that pouring down the Earth, but my physical condition is not really good now due to cold weather everyday...So I just felt tired when I see snow hiikss....

However, this year might be the only year I could enjoy the snow since I only have one year to study and live here in Netherlands... thus, I decided to enjoy each day I have here...despite the problems and sometimes I feel bored with this situation hehe...

And also It's not only me who feel those things, most of my friends have the same feeling nevertheless we have each other to laugh with and to cry with.

Oh yeah about the photo, I took it when I was buying 'Nasi-Goreng met kip' a Chinese-Surinamese restaurant. It's really delicious, with 'Small portion' in a big plate hehe... I always eat here with my friends after we went to Central or just hang out with them. Next time I will take some photos from the restaurant...yummy!!

Smile

Indeed,, smile is actually the best cure for every bad things we face in life. I got this problem that really bugging me while I'm not in my best time a.k.a PMS... I could stop thinking it, it just make me feel gloomy... But, smiles and cares from friends who are really care about you is the best cure ever.... :) so, when you feeling down just look at people who really care you and SMILE. I'm really grateful that I met so many kind friends here and they offered me sincere friendships...I hope I could return them what they have gave to me... Yes, God always has the way to show me that everything gonna be okay...even though I'm far away from my family, best friends and him, but in return He gives me them :) I'm really grateful to you God

I ate

My dinner and this is one from many things why I gain weight so fast hehe...(hiks...)

-Broccoli
-Macaroni with cheese
-Baked Alaska Fish

-One word Delicious-

Totally a Mess...

But I called it an ART in studying :)

One from three

One down, two more too go...!!!
I just finished my assignment and I hope I sent it correctly to my lecturer since he is new in EUR so he doesnt have account in sin-online. sooo...I should sent my assignment with common mail... I hope it sent to correct mail address.

Gosh....these days I am feeling so lazy to do something especially studying... and the scariest thing is I only like cooking!!! whaaat?? I'm here not for cooking but studying!!
Okay, maybe I should get married next year hehe...

btw, I cooked Chicken Nanking, it end up too salty I think...hmm...but maybe I could open a Restaurant after this?

I Love Cheap things hehe

Yep..yesterday I went to Primark where it has very cheap prices for everything, emmm... Its like a common stores actually, selling everyday stuffs but in a cheaper prices...veeeery cheap hehe...

I thought it would be like 'Mayestik' that has many small stores and sell so many things, but thanks God, it only have clothes, underwear and accessories :)

I bought shoes, shirt, umbrella ( regret it a lil bit hiiiks...) and something that I wont put it in here hehehe.... after all the stores finally I found this one...it save me from bankruptcy...nice one...

huff...why am I soo lazy to write??? just few paragraph but I already want to stop...hmm... I have to focus on my paper after all, but I always distracted to other things....

yeah well....

this is what I got from Primark, just 3 euro hohoho

Now, This is My Life

I will life my live for the fullest...

If I stumble and fall, I will give all my strength to stand up and walk again like nothing happen..
because I need to have a positive thinking so nothing bad would happen to me again... I cant stuck in my past...nooooo waay....

I will learn from my mistakes, because it taught me a lot than if I learned it by books and school...

Yeah, school only give us their theory and their idea of what we should do in our life, what is right for community and what is not... but we really learn it when we do something but failed...then you are LEARNING...

Why? then you know 100ways for making mistakes so you know what you should do when you find a dead end in your life... no...there is no dead end, there always a way to escape...you just don't see it yet...


Yes...what ever God give me, it will always a gift that I receive from Him... I wont complain like a drama queen... I have a beautiful life, so many chances for me and I wont screw it out... I know this is His way to teach me something important for my life...

That is why...I will always be grateful for my life and the most important is THINK POSITIVE!!

Exams week

Hell yeah...I'm in the middle of war now hohohoho....

I just had my first exam in Blok 2 today and I totally screw the first part,, the thing is that after I finished the exam...all I want to do was just laugh and laugh.... really....when I was working on my 2nd part, I almost smiling thinking that I really messed up with the first one....

hmm... the first part was talking about ICJ, Private Commercial Arbitration and WB Panel.... I never expected that questions... huuuufff......I hope the 2nd part will help my grade...please God...oooh pleeease let me passed this exam pleaaaaaaseeee...

well... the good thing is at least I'm not losing my humour...or maybe I'm just to desperate...
hmmm..... I want to go find something to eat, very hungry now.

I am not being confidence

That's why I like this Quote:

"Do one think that scare you Everyday"

by: Eleanor Roosevelt



Okay...what things that scare me? hmm... talk to my coordinator? nooo...that is waaaay to scary hahaha... tomorrow? hmm... I don't know... I don't feel like myself now... I don't even now who am I anymore...what my thought, idealism, knowledge, attitude, I don't know anymore... sometime I felt lost... sometime I felt this is just a dream... because I could not feel myself...

Who Am I exactly?

hmmm.... I think I am in the middle of quarter life crisis... yes I am...

Maybe... or Maybe...?

When I was in high school, my dearest friends told me that I am being used by one of friend (she's public enemy in our class hehe...) and don't be so kind to her...

and now...after so many years... (not) so many experienced with people... I heard that thing again... "you're being used... be careful!"

Ha...!! really.. is there something wrong with me being nice? I was thinking when I am still in high school that I am okay if someone approach me and ask for help or anything... I though as long as I could help them and nothing bad would happen, so why not? I was very sad that time, when my (best) friend ask me to stay away from that person... well... fyi, that person was not really favourite friend... almost everyone doesn't like her... that is why she's called Public Enemy... haha... childhood can be so harsh for some people...

and now, when I'm in twenties something, someone telling me that I am to nice and was being used by someone... okay... did I change? after few years I think I am not really changing... but now what did I think about that?

Well... don't we always have an interest to other people? could we live without no one? we have friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, good relationship with some people... do you think they don't have any interest or not taking benefit from you? hmm... if you think it's not..maybe you should rethink :p

haha... no...just kidding...yes, I am not changing at all...maybe some part of me being more wise and have more experience DEALING with people... but, I still have that THOUGHT... I will help you no matter what... why? I don't know... for now I still don't have the answer...

Or maybe...

It's me just being selfish? I don't want to be burden by others problem... just help them and the problems will be solve...tadaaaa....

hmmm...maybe...

or I am just being kind?

maybe...

geez...please don't think to much if you want to help other... just stop thinking okay... Be Yourself dear...

you

You make me Laugh
You make me Cry hard
You make me Smile again
You rid all doubts in me when I sit beside you
sometimes you make me Hate you
but then you always make me so in LOVE with you...

Love...such a wonderful feeling... such a pathetic things...but...can we live without love?

I want to enjoy this feeling...the happiness, hatred, weariness, excitement, smiling just to think of you or crying because sometimes you ignoring me...

I hope you have the patient and courage to handled a girl like me :)