I Love Cheap things hehe

Yep..yesterday I went to Primark where it has very cheap prices for everything, emmm... Its like a common stores actually, selling everyday stuffs but in a cheaper prices...veeeery cheap hehe...

I thought it would be like 'Mayestik' that has many small stores and sell so many things, but thanks God, it only have clothes, underwear and accessories :)

I bought shoes, shirt, umbrella ( regret it a lil bit hiiiks...) and something that I wont put it in here hehehe.... after all the stores finally I found this one...it save me from bankruptcy...nice one...

huff...why am I soo lazy to write??? just few paragraph but I already want to stop...hmm... I have to focus on my paper after all, but I always distracted to other things....

yeah well....

this is what I got from Primark, just 3 euro hohoho

Now, This is My Life

I will life my live for the fullest...

If I stumble and fall, I will give all my strength to stand up and walk again like nothing happen..
because I need to have a positive thinking so nothing bad would happen to me again... I cant stuck in my past...nooooo waay....

I will learn from my mistakes, because it taught me a lot than if I learned it by books and school...

Yeah, school only give us their theory and their idea of what we should do in our life, what is right for community and what is not... but we really learn it when we do something but failed...then you are LEARNING...

Why? then you know 100ways for making mistakes so you know what you should do when you find a dead end in your life... no...there is no dead end, there always a way to escape...you just don't see it yet...


Yes...what ever God give me, it will always a gift that I receive from Him... I wont complain like a drama queen... I have a beautiful life, so many chances for me and I wont screw it out... I know this is His way to teach me something important for my life...

That is why...I will always be grateful for my life and the most important is THINK POSITIVE!!

Exams week

Hell yeah...I'm in the middle of war now hohohoho....

I just had my first exam in Blok 2 today and I totally screw the first part,, the thing is that after I finished the exam...all I want to do was just laugh and laugh.... really....when I was working on my 2nd part, I almost smiling thinking that I really messed up with the first one....

hmm... the first part was talking about ICJ, Private Commercial Arbitration and WB Panel.... I never expected that questions... huuuufff......I hope the 2nd part will help my grade...please God...oooh pleeease let me passed this exam pleaaaaaaseeee...

well... the good thing is at least I'm not losing my humour...or maybe I'm just to desperate...
hmmm..... I want to go find something to eat, very hungry now.

I am not being confidence

That's why I like this Quote:

"Do one think that scare you Everyday"

by: Eleanor Roosevelt



Okay...what things that scare me? hmm... talk to my coordinator? nooo...that is waaaay to scary hahaha... tomorrow? hmm... I don't know... I don't feel like myself now... I don't even now who am I anymore...what my thought, idealism, knowledge, attitude, I don't know anymore... sometime I felt lost... sometime I felt this is just a dream... because I could not feel myself...

Who Am I exactly?

hmmm.... I think I am in the middle of quarter life crisis... yes I am...

Maybe... or Maybe...?

When I was in high school, my dearest friends told me that I am being used by one of friend (she's public enemy in our class hehe...) and don't be so kind to her...

and now...after so many years... (not) so many experienced with people... I heard that thing again... "you're being used... be careful!"

Ha...!! really.. is there something wrong with me being nice? I was thinking when I am still in high school that I am okay if someone approach me and ask for help or anything... I though as long as I could help them and nothing bad would happen, so why not? I was very sad that time, when my (best) friend ask me to stay away from that person... well... fyi, that person was not really favourite friend... almost everyone doesn't like her... that is why she's called Public Enemy... haha... childhood can be so harsh for some people...

and now, when I'm in twenties something, someone telling me that I am to nice and was being used by someone... okay... did I change? after few years I think I am not really changing... but now what did I think about that?

Well... don't we always have an interest to other people? could we live without no one? we have friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, good relationship with some people... do you think they don't have any interest or not taking benefit from you? hmm... if you think it's not..maybe you should rethink :p

haha... no...just kidding...yes, I am not changing at all...maybe some part of me being more wise and have more experience DEALING with people... but, I still have that THOUGHT... I will help you no matter what... why? I don't know... for now I still don't have the answer...

Or maybe...

It's me just being selfish? I don't want to be burden by others problem... just help them and the problems will be solve...tadaaaa....

hmmm...maybe...

or I am just being kind?

maybe...

geez...please don't think to much if you want to help other... just stop thinking okay... Be Yourself dear...

you

You make me Laugh
You make me Cry hard
You make me Smile again
You rid all doubts in me when I sit beside you
sometimes you make me Hate you
but then you always make me so in LOVE with you...

Love...such a wonderful feeling... such a pathetic things...but...can we live without love?

I want to enjoy this feeling...the happiness, hatred, weariness, excitement, smiling just to think of you or crying because sometimes you ignoring me...

I hope you have the patient and courage to handled a girl like me :)